Thursday, September 25, 2014

A Cultural Void

I could regale you with plenty of sad stories.  There are too many sad stories here. And, saddest is what I perceive as an insidious and acceptable level of violence and misfortune.  For countries that have endured decades of war, epidemics and natural disasters, where death and illness prevail, how can one be anything but hardened?

Walking to work this week I noticed a crowd gathering on the side of the road.  Curiosity got the better of me and I went to take a look.   A middle-aged man and woman were fighting, flailing at one another and shouting.  It wasn’t quite clear who was winning, if anyone.  They kept a grasp on one another, pulling back and forth while the crowds laughed and jeered.
They were both dirty, their clothes disheveled and torn. 

The crowd, mostly young people, laughing, saw this as their morning entertainment.   The woman had a straw shopping bag, with bits of cloth stuffed inside.  The man, trying to save his pride, was attempting to take this away from her, the only thing she had.  I was so saddened to see the sheer and utter desperation of this couple, particularly the look on the woman’s face, and more so, the depravity of the onlookers.

And, it’s not an uncommon occurrence.  I’ve experienced this before in Mozambique and in East Africa.  Crowds seem to take joy in the misfortune of others.  Someone stumbles, dropping their meager wares, and bystanders laugh.  Chastising and humiliation is a public sport.  In a place that is filled with painful history and seemingly insurmountable challenges, I find this disturbing and confusing.  The lack of civility saddens and frightens me.  I wonder if it is a result of all that has come before, a coping mechanism, or a requirement for future difficulties.

Years ago I was in the lobby of a movie theater, by myself.  Inadvertently, I bumped into a teenage girl, standing in a pack with her friends.  These were tough looking kids wearing spiked  neck collars and displaying multiple tattoos and facial piercings.  I apologized but not quickly enough.  She threw out a stream of obscenities and taunts.  I don’t know that I ever felt such baseness from a person.  Yet, it left me feeling so alone, so apart from the human race. 


I wanted to intervene in that roadside fight, interrupt the cruelty.  I considered my options.  Sadly, I crossed to the other side of the road and continued on to the hospital.

ESTOU PEDIR

“ I am asking for”…. An all too common phrase here in Mozambique.   And, like other African countries I have visited, an integral aspect of the culture.  Family, friends and neighbors ask to borrow with the expectation of the request to be granted.  It appears as a trait of community strength, stories worthy of global internet circulation, extoling the virtues of kinship.   In reality, it is a system that impedes progress, denying the person with any level of possession from getting ahead.  There are always people in need, there is a never ending stream of want.  


My morning ritual begins with opening my door, allowing the morning light to spread through my home.  I sit in the wooden chair at my desk, waiting for the tea- kettle to boil. Acknowledging and claiming this day, and all the possibility within, I stretch the sleep out of my leg and arm muscles.  I seek internal quiet, hedged in by the busy sounds of the compound. 

Someone with a straw broom is scratching the sand, back and forth, back and forth, sweeping the ground free of trash and debris left from the night before.  Women and children are at the well, water sloshing from bucket to bucket, bits of conversation exchanged.  Men working in the carpenteria next store, under the shade of an open- air rooftop, have been hammering, sawing and banging chisels for hours already.  And, the music.  There is always music.  Very  loud music for the entire compound to enjoy, set as the backdrop throughout the day and night.  Most of it sounds like a mixture of carnival and techno music, something like a calliope and computerized sounds, repeated over and over.   It is maddening.

I have often wished I had been sent to rural China or somewhere in the mountains of South America.  I romanticize about the quiet there, imagining me serene and peaceful. Yet, I wonder if I would seek to equalize the outside stillness with a busy mind.  Maybe it is here, amidst all of the noise and turmoil that I am to learn to still my mind, learn the art of just being.  Each morning I think about this.  And, then, a small voice at my door.  Repeated two or three times, “ Licença”, a request to enter, or be received. 

My young neighbor stands on the porch and immediately starts in with “Estou pedir…”.  She has requested band-aids, sugar, a sewing needle, use of plastic food containers and like teen-agers everywhere, an urgent request to purchase shoes for her upcoming school dance.  Most of these requests are made at 6 AM, the very first moments of my day, within minutes of opening my door.   Another neighbor, reminding me that she is pregnant, asked for money to buy food for her hungry children.  It is an uncomfortable proposition.

It is easy for me to lend sugar, or a sewing needle, though, as expected, the needle was never returned.  I do not want to be seen as the dispensary for the neighborhood.  Repeatedly I explain my role as a volunteer,  that I am living on the level of the local salary.  Ridiculous, really, as my home contains more personal items than most of them will ever own.  After all, I am an American, a “Mulungu”, a rich person of means and opportunity.  I am sure they disregard or mock my response.


To my pregnant neighbor, I point out that there is great need in this neighborhood, that I am without resources to assist everyone and that I cannot choose favorites.  I inquire as to how she has cared for her family prior to my arrival.  My strategy is sound, I know, yet supporting empowerment and problem solving seems a weak response to counter her hunger.  I feel awkward and annoyed, incapable and resentful for all of the imbalance in the world. But mostly, at this moment,  I attempt to reconcile the inequity of the chance of birth,  the game of Roulette that offers some of us  privilege and others poverty.

I retreat back inside. I look up the word stingy, “pãoduro”.
Will I hear my neighbors use this word as I walk by?  The volunteer that lived in this house before me painted a mural on the kitchen wall.  In the corner are the words, “Estou Pedir” with a stick person grimmacing.  I go back to my desk and try to rewind to my first morning moments.  I claim the day, this experience a part of it.


Sunday, September 21, 2014

Mozambique Matinee: Tidbits of Life Just East of the Kalahari





- Summer has arrived in Zambezia.  The season started a bit earlier than expected and with full force.  Last week temperatures reached 100 ° Fahrenheit, almost 38 ° Celsius.  I don’t even want to know the humidity index.  I label it simply “Unbearable”.  Vendors in the market slept under their tables and the children stayed indoors during the hottest part of the day.  Thankfully, my small refrigerator arrived last week.  I can’t think of another time in my life when I have so appreciated cold drinking water.  I tell myself that I will acclimate to this heat but also made a note to myself that if I ever get the chance to go to the Kalahari, I won’t do it.  Unless, of course, sun stroke or dehydration erases this memory entirely, which is  quite possible.

-  Mozambicans take the phrase “Living off the Land” to an entirely new level.   Squatters, people in the rural areas simply decide where they want to live and build their homes.  Using bamboo reeds, they construct the frame.  Next they fill in the frame with packed mud.  If there is time and energy, cinderblocks can be made from the mud and used as building material.  For extra stability, some houses are whitewashed with an outer mud layer.  Reeds and thatch are bundled up and used for roofing.  Like plants, these houses seem to erupt from the earth, an extension growing out of the dirt. 

Communities are hidden in the tall grasses. Once one knows how to look, adjusting ones eyes to the wide- open landscape, and following the narrow and worn dirt path, used for decades, possibly even hundreds of years, entire communities appear.  At once a complex and simple scene unfolds.  Simple for its lack of sophistication, complex in that it has continued to support humanity, in mostly this same form, for thousands of years.

Beans and legumes are spread out on straw mats, drying in the sun.  A man wields a heavy wooden baton and beats the shells off the beans.  Two women stand opposite one another, around a large hand carved wooden mortar, each with a heavy pestle in hand.  In perfect synchronization, they pound and grind grain.  Children poke a papaya tree with a two long sticks, tied together with dried reeds, their bounty tumbling down.

 
How is it that these communities form so far from any other place?  There is no market, no clinic, just a long dirt road that reveals other communities, exactly, it seems, as this one.  I peer out the window of the car as we speed by, feeling like I am from another planet, not just the other side of the world.



- Breastfeeding is very commonplace here and absolutely acceptable in public.  La Leche would approve.  If my day were divided up into individual picture frames, taken minute by minute, there would be at least one breast in every frame, maybe even the set.   And as for the non-lactating women, cleavage and breasts are also readily exposed.  Yet, it isn’t a major fascination here.  The sexy parts of the body, and the areas that should be covered, are from the waist down to the mid-calf.  Knees are considered especially sexy.  

A troupe of traditional dancers modestly smeared dirt on their knees, out of respect to their audience.  A woman in the market last week was completely bare breasted, trying on a bra in the busy aisles.  Women were tights under shorts or  short dresses, despite the extreme heat.  An old woman in a local village sat out in front of her house, on her straw mat, topless.   Funny how sexy and stylish is determined.  It just goes to prove that it is all in the mind, or, as in Mozambique, in the knees.

- Local public transport here consists of bicycle taxis or chappas.  Chappas are mini-vans, with three to four rows of seats, four people across.  Passengers are squeezed in, often crouched and folded over the seated passengers.  In addition, the small rear compartment is loaded with market wares, as is the rooftop.  Plastic ware of every sort, foam mattresses, bags of coal or rice, bicycles, and even live goats are tied on for transport. The poorly maintained vehicles careen down the roads, beeping constantly for the pedestrians and bicycles to move further to the side.  Some of these vehicles are named. One of my favorites is “Jelous Down”.  I have absolutely no idea of the meaning, but I like that this phrase is important to the driver and that he went through the trouble of getting an English translation, even if it is misspelled.

The bicycle taxis, no less harrowing to ride, are heavy old bikes with an oblong pad above the back fender.  For five metacais, the equivalent of approximately six cents, one can go virtually anywhere in town.  The drivers are all male, young boys and old men alike.  They’ll also carry your wares, anything from lumber to groceries.  I am learning to relax, figuring they know what they are doing.   Anyway, my back street driving instructions, shouted out in very bad Portuguese with a mix of Ukrainian words thrown in, are only distractions to the driver.


- My bathroom these days consist of an out-door latrine and area for bathing.  Someone installed a toilet over the hole in the ground and painted it a cheery golden yellow.  A PVC pipe installed in the bowl demands accurate aim.  A bucket of water, filled every two days or so, and a plastic pitcher, is used for the dump flush.  I carry in another container of water for my bucket baths.  I heat up a tea- kettle and add it to the water ported from the well.  It is a nightly ritual and surprisingly, incredibly relaxing.  The task requires my focus, calling me to leave the thoughts and events of the day behind.  Now that I am more comfortable here, I take my baths later in the evening, no longer rushing out there to bathe before nightfall.  A small flashlight provides a bit of light, accompanying any stars or moonlight. 







When I first arrived, the local kids treated my shower time as a neighborhood event.  Large fronds from a banana tree would be pushed through the window or the space between the metal roof and the wall, the kids giggling, trying to get my attention.  Small packs of children would run around the structure, calling out to me.  Once, I looked up from my bath to find three small faces peering down at me through the open space in the mud wall. They had pushed rocks and stones together to climb up and get a view.  Luckily I have become less of a novelty as the days go by.  I am left to myself when I shower.  And, I really love it.  Certainly, the best part of my days are my bucket baths.  This, I never would have imagined.
 






















- Most places in Mozambique, and other African countries that I have visited, have a major problem with trash.  The streets are littered with refuse as there is usually no municipal service or other available option.  Sitting in the front courtyard of my pension in Quelimane, I watched the comings and goings of the neighborhood.  Across the street was “Jesus Cristo E Senhor”.  Just down the street was a Mosque.  Large rats ran back and forth.  Trying to find their religion?

I haven't yet figured out the whole space thing here.  Space and personal property seems, at times, quite fluid.  And, just when I think this is so, I trounce on clear definitions of each.  As I write this I hear wooden chairs being dragged onto the porch.  I would normally call it "my porch" as it is my only access in and out of the house, but I don't think it is "my porch" simply because it is attached to my house, or  because it is my egress.  I hear my landlord and a male guest, speaking the local language, laughing.  They are seated so close to me as I work at my desk in my living room, that I hear the beep of a text message, received by one of their phones.  My laundry is hanging on the line, just outside of my door, my personal items now shading them from the hot sun.   Often, I come home from work to find my landlady spread out on a straw mat, sleeping on the porch.   I have to step around her to unlock my door.  Other times she has set up shop, seated on a low wooden bench, pounding maize or grinding coconut. And, they have their own porch, right across the compound, only 12 feet away. Granted, my porch is more spacious and open.  The neighbborhood kids play on this porch also, at all hours. They peer through my door, cackling and calling out.  When I go out there, I see that they are mimicking my yoga poses.  Okay, hint taken. I will explain and show them what I am doing, but another time.   I ask them to play elsewhere when the noise and lack of privacy becomes too much. 


Yet, when I walk home from work, the local women tell me I am walking through someone's yard.  It appeared to be a dirt path to me.  I can't yet tell the boundaries of personal and community space,  it seems.  So much of life here is lived outside the home.  Meals are cooked on open fires in the yard, laundry and dish washing is done outdoors, the water ported from nearby wells.  Children play outdoors at all hours of the day and night.  So, I am walking through someone's yard.  Good natured, my neighbors point out the path, instructing me on the local codes of behavior.  Everyday, as I approach this area, women, men and children emphatically point me in the right direction, taking their role of acculturating me quite seriously.  Then, today, they give me the thumbs up sign as I walk on the proper path, without their tutelage.  I am embarrassed that such a simple thing is a major accomplishment for me.  But I am proud too and return the thumbs up.  In my head, I imagine a ticker-tape parade in my honor, big band music playing, “Happy Days Are Here Again”, kids waving flags, confetti steaming down upon me.

I continue the walk to my house, leaving my fantasy behind.   I find my landlords camped out on the porch.  Would it be culturally appropriate if I direct my landlord and neighbors somewhere else other than "my porch"?  I wonder.....